Depression

Depression is a bitch.
Depression can be very elusive to the unknowing mind.
It can hit you for any number of reasons but I believe there to be only few ways of dealing with it.

When you first realize that it's been biting you in the ass for whatever length of time you were unaware, depression can be shocking. Especially when it has engulfed you without your knowledge, or an ego is blocking the path to recovering.

I believe depression is: formulated, structuralized, reinforced, and imprinted on your mind. The process of this is happening IN your mind, while the effects are ON your mind. Whatever effects are taking place in the mind are than projected outwards into the world. The events in the mind are caused by a course of unfortunate events (perceptions rather)reinforced by negative thought; becoming real. The easiest way to get caught in it is not knowing it exists.

Pessimism can run rampant as you fall deeper into depression. It becomes a day and night task to keep up with thoughts that may spiral out of control.
If drugs and alcohol are involved, a hangover can be torture for depressive pessimistic thoughts. Looping trains of thought that put boundaries on your mental space, keep you trapped in a cell of death and force-feed you all the feelings to go with it.

Maybe someone will tell you that you have depression.
Or, Maybe you will know.
If you go to the doctor... guess what? The drugs; they aren't going to help you get over it, at all.
Hopefully, you become aware as to avoid the further entrenching that occurs from this depressive behavior.

IF, you have been on the path for some time and can't relieve yourself of the pain. You have to educate yourself.
You have to free your mind, and educate yourself.
Forget what you know, how you live. You have to change your life and rewire your mind.

Let go of what you know, what has happened, what you think.
It isn't you, it's in your mind.
Let the mind go, open the space inside.
Be you, and change how your mind works.