The Junkie.

the junkie in a sense, has a basic life.
most of their wants diminish and one is held above all the others with grandiose stature.
so much stature in fact, that it will be held above their needs. in this sense, it has become a need.
a junkie will go to great lengths to satisfy this need.
they will cross friends and family, they will lie, cheat, and steal to any length for satisfaction.
when the satisfaction is gained it is only a temporary gain, they will be back to there tricks to regain what they long for.
does a junkie ever win?
for a moment in time, yes. but their fight continues once the loss inevitably sets in. once the celebration of their victory has worn off.
have you ever witnessed a junkies desperation? when they have come to the bitter end of their resource and can find no more light. the panic that ensues is treacherous, there is no control here. only a very painful form of hope,there is no happiness to look toward in this pursuit. there is no bright light at the end of the tunnel, no ultimate high. no real gain.
the approval that this junkie seeks can not be found. nobody can give this junkie what it is looking for.
even if the junkie thinks it has found happiness, it can be swept out from under them in the blink of an eye. the junkie lives behind a false set of eyes, a false set of facial expressions, and a false sense of truth.
when the junkie feels threatened by someone trying to change its junkie ways, the junkie will go to great lengths trying to protect what the junkie thinks is the right thing to do.
oh,
there are many small victory's in the life of a junkie, but an ultimately sinful demise.

a sin is not something the junkie 'shouldn't do' a sin is something the junkie 'wouldn't do' if the junkie realized what it was doing. if the junkie realized that it was missing the point.
to be sinful is not to be wrong as much as it is to do a great injustice to what is possible.
the junkie is caught in a vicious game that it can not win, will not ever win.
the junkie has created a game that can only be played, not won.
in due time the game begins to play the junkie.
a puzzling riddle that can not be solved, but will always shed a small amount of light on a fact. that maybe, it can be solved.
sit now and recap on what you have just read.
sit in the drivers seat of the junkie-mobile.
now, concentrate and ask yourself this question...
what you just read, is it about a drug addict?
the answer is no.